Several things have been bugging me the past couple of days. Know those things that run amok inside your head and keep running and running until you're too exhausted to think about them? Yep, that sort of thing. Sleep isn't really an escape, I could swear I dreamed about something related just the other day.
And I can't write. I mean I got a thousand ideas I want to write about but I end up starting and pausing at the intro, then I am struck with a bad case of the blasted Blah. I find it entirely idiotic actually. I get an idea, I start to turn it over in my head, I open Notepad++ (thanks Chichar!), then boom, I hit a paralysing blank. I know, I know. I've written about the big bad writer's block a thousand times before, but somehow writing about it makes it go away for me.
Around (hmmm.... what year is this?) four years back, I was at a job interview and the HR person Gino asked me what I'd bring to a deserted island - along with food and water to last me for years. I had answered, "Tons of blank paper and pens."
Back then, I thought I'd be able to write a lot of stuff if only I could get some spare time. It's ironic since now that I do write for a living, all I want is to take a break from writing. Now, staring at blank pieces of paper/blank documents drives me nuts. I guess even the things you love doing become tiresome when used in the same sentence as "work." I'm rambling, I know.
This'll go away, eventually. I have a nagging feeling that this has something to do with 25 slowly creeping up on me, but let's not talk about that.
Happy thoughts, happy thoughts.
"I mean I got a thousand ideas I want to write about but I end up starting and pausing at the intro"
ReplyDeleteHaha, same here. Minsan parang may astig na ideas in my head and I figure out how to put that into writing, pero nawawala when it's time to put it down. I think the hardest part is making things coherent; when I fail to do that, I get really annoyed and scrap the whole thing.
Find a fellow prisoner and start your own writing project. Dali.
ReplyDeletesabi nga ni rica, "just write. tapos edit mo nalang pagkatapos."
ReplyDeletetama tama!
ReplyDeleteDi ko na matandaan 'to... Pero yun nga. Sulat lang nang sulat. Tapos edit pagtapos na.
ReplyDeleteyou always say that. nakakalimutan mo lang. :D
ReplyDeleteLalalalalala~~~
ReplyDeleteWow, we're so ESPN! Tinanong din ako ng ganyan once sa isang job interview and I sort of answered the same way - Notebooks at pencils. Now parang baliktad yung nangyayari sakin, when it comes to writing for work, I have lots of ideas at nagagawa ko siya. But when it comes to writing for kicks, nabablangko lang ako.
ReplyDeleteAs much as gusto kong maniwala sa concept that there's no such thing as writer's block, parang ang hirap. There's this thing I've been trying to write since February (I think alam mo kung tungkol saan yun), pero everytime na isusulat ko siya...ayun nga, stuck. A friend suggested that I finish it, for closure chenes daw. Pero well, until andito siya sa recesses ng aking hard disk, no closure for me, I guess.
Anyway, kape?!?!
Akala ko ba, Meesha, mag-road trip kayo ni Chochi? Malapit na mag-end of the world, er, end of October ah.
ReplyDeletehahaha, nagsisimula lahat sa kape. :D
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